B Positive

The discovery of two large masses on my ovaries provided the genesis for this piece. In trying to understand what was happening, I turned to multiple ways of seeing the body including Chinese Medicine. Within this paradigm, such masses are viewed as stagnant blood or energy. My blood type is B+ and so I imagined the masses as vast reservoirs of positivity waiting to be birthed.

What was I not giving birth to creatively, emotionally, spiritually?

Based on family history and blood markers I was considered high risk for cancer. The prognosis: to surgically remove them along with my ovaries and uterus. Although beset by fear, I couldn’t bring myself to consent to this.

Our bodies speak in whispers to us all the time. When whispers are ignored, the body speaks in matter. We then rush to fix, remove, and suppress.

But whatever we suppress becomes Shadow.

What if the thing we resist contains our greatest treasure? What if we transmute our fear, our grief, our rage, into gold?

B Positive examines the psyche’s drive to transmute fear into creation, the compulsion to stay with what frightens us long enough for it to change form.